The life of a Cork-Asian
Leeds canal #everydaybeauty #Leeds #brewerywharf #riveraire (at Brewery Wharf)

Leeds canal #everydaybeauty #Leeds #brewerywharf #riveraire (at Brewery Wharf)

Sexy as fuck climbing shoes. Oooooh yeeeaaahhhhh #bouldering #myfirstshoes #badass

Sexy as fuck climbing shoes. Oooooh yeeeaaahhhhh #bouldering #myfirstshoes #badass

When things just feel like it’s all too much. When you’re close to being overwhelmed and you’ve never been so lost. Slow down. Take a deep breath. And another. You’re capable more than you think.

Times like this make me wonder why I left Leeds. #clarencedock #heaven #upnorth (at Clarence Dock)

Times like this make me wonder why I left Leeds. #clarencedock #heaven #upnorth (at Clarence Dock)

<3 (at The Brewery Tap)

<3 (at The Brewery Tap)

Leeds, are you ready for me?! #leedsmassive #backtouni #nightout (at Leeds city centre)

Leeds, are you ready for me?! #leedsmassive #backtouni #nightout (at Leeds city centre)

The Cat Empire. Absolutely immense! #thecatempire #Somersethouse #amexsounds #youresosly (at Somerset House)

The Cat Empire. Absolutely immense! #thecatempire #Somersethouse #amexsounds #youresosly (at Somerset House)

I found it!! #booksabouttown #London #summer2014 #howtotrainyourdragon (at The Scoop at More London)

I found it!! #booksabouttown #London #summer2014 #howtotrainyourdragon (at The Scoop at More London)

Nothing beats a good pho tai chin. #mamapho #Vietnamese #surreyquays #London #foodgasm (at Mama Pho)

Nothing beats a good pho tai chin. #mamapho #Vietnamese #surreyquays #London #foodgasm (at Mama Pho)

Evening St Paul&#8217;s #londonsights #stpauls #nighttimescenery

Evening St Paul’s #londonsights #stpauls #nighttimescenery

Lobster! #burger&amp;lobster #beastofameal #London  (at Burger and Lobster Bread St)

Lobster! #burger&lobster #beastofameal #London (at Burger and Lobster Bread St)

Baked salmon in olive oil and lime juice with sauteed vegetables and couscous. #lastnightsdinner #food #goodnosh #nom

Baked salmon in olive oil and lime juice with sauteed vegetables and couscous. #lastnightsdinner #food #goodnosh #nom

How To Train Your Dragon 2 in imax. Yeeaaaahhh buddy! #httyd2 #somuchyes #justcame (at London IMAX)

How To Train Your Dragon 2 in imax. Yeeaaaahhh buddy! #httyd2 #somuchyes #justcame (at London IMAX)

Today

I’ve finally discovered what feeling is the worst to have. 

It’s not hate, lust, envy or wrath. Although they are still pretty bad in extreme forms. 

Self-loathing is most definitely the worst feeling to have.

I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. Like I want to jump out and inhabit another to shake this feeling. I feel like the whole world is judging me and against me - that I need to try and please them by being careful with my every move but it just doesn’t seem to work. 

Everything I do seems to have negative consequences at the moment. And I can’t seem to just stop doing them. It’s like watching a train crash and I really don’t know how to stop it.

I’m not crashing. I know that. And I imagine this will all blow over in time just like any other time. But this gut feeling of self-loathing will stick like a horrible itch you can’t reach. Maybe that’ll help me keep on the straight and narrow next time.

Oh really? #meantimebrewfest2014 #flyingdog #beerfestival #greenwich (at Old Brewery Greenwich)

Oh really? #meantimebrewfest2014 #flyingdog #beerfestival #greenwich (at Old Brewery Greenwich)